Sueños modificados... Chapter Two... Waterfall...

Sometimes I (and I think you also) wake up feeling stricken, and your heart beats so quick that it hurts. I might be because of a cruel dream; not a nightmare, those make one wake up on sweat.

Well, then I try to Remember the dream and; my imagination itself (without asking for permission) transforms that dream into something more painful because it added some of my fears... like this one:

"I'm standing on the edge of a 70 mt. high waterfall that there is in Yungay, and I'm arranging two video cameras; one recording the fall of the water and the other recording me. To one of the Cameras I say something like: "this is the end, I chose this to finish everything. There will be no more pain" and I cut my arms, I'm killing myself. Then I jump off from the edge just to make sure that I'll die. I'm falling, but I see myself through the cameras while I'm falling. I can see my blood falling slower than the rest of my body.

I'm half way down when suddenly I feel like flying, that I'm not Falling anymore. I'm Trying to control it, I feel like I'm suspended in the air with my arms open and still bleeding. I scream on anger while I glance at my arms which are now healing. I won't die now, I stopped bleeding and I fall no longer.

Then I start controlling this, I'm Fling to my beloved's house while I realise that it's night already.

I'm in Front of her window. I'm Smoking a cigarrete, my hands are shaking, trembling. I shout her name out, calling her, I scream a mix of anger, nerves, sadness, tears, smoke. I'm Crying, I feel that I'm not dead but that I don't exist either. Or at least not for her. I'm falling again".

So, what is real and what is not? what was really my dream and what wasn't?